Just Choose!!!

Funny how I blogged a few months ago saying how i was going to start blogging again and that was my last post...I guess it must not have i meant that much to me cause i totally forgot about it. But I'm still in the same boat i was in when i wrote my last blog. Except how I'm living in the town i never thought i would live in again, at the same job i hate and now a married to the man i didn't expect to marry. The marrying part is great though. I love him so much. But I can already see that the sayings about the first three years of marriage being the hardest are totally going to be evident in my life. That's what i get for marrying a guy who farms in the summer while i live in town.
What are the things that make me who i am? I don't even know where to start searching for the answers. In the movies people always take a trip to find themselves. I am not in the position to do that. Other people read self help books. I used to read them but it only seemed to make it worse. So where do i find myself. The bible is a good place to start. I get discouraged fast with that though. So often i don't feel like I'm learning about my character but just the things that I'm doing wrong. I want to wake up and feel good about myself. I want to wake up and have something to live for that day. Happiness is a choice. and i want to choose to be happy. I guess there isn't more that i can do right now except to just do it. Just choose. I will be happy. I will wake up tomorrow refreshed and ready to face the day!!