Soccer EH'

SO I joined soccer! Kinda unbelievable to me...except for the fact that the pain I am in proves that I am in soccer....This weekend was a major growing time for me. I never thought that a sport could allow me to see how many things in my life are wrong. I never thought a sport could bring out the worst in me...But soccer did and I love it because of that.....I mean not because I like being bad or anything but because it showed me the areas in my life that I need to work on. Now that I am back in Eston and the weekend is almost over I am enjoying looking back on the last few days and seeing the changes that have come about in my life...I always thought that something AMAZING would have to happen to me for me to see the areas in my life that I need to change but now that I know nothing profound has to happen for me to be cahllenged all I can say when I talk to the LORD is ....Soccer EH'

The Other Side

There I was bound to my sin
Not allowing anyone in

Showing everyone my smile so fake
Not knowing my freedom was at stake

Living everyday waiting to die
Not showing anyone how well I could cry

Oh how I longed to be on the other side
To live everyday with nothing to hide

And now here I am consumed by peace
I allowed the LORD in and now I am released

I am no longer trapped by my sins walls
I am no longer scared that I am going to fall

The LORD seems so near as I live every day
His love is with me and this I must say

I love you my LORD with all that's within me
I'll praise you my LORD to the depths of the sea

Thank you for holding me every time I cried
And now truly I must be on the other side

My road

Everyone has their own road to travel on. The road that I am walking has consumed me today and put me at peace. I walk along this road hearing the whisper of the LORD in my ear. His beauty is all around me and it entices me like nothing else. I see the LORD in everything I do. Whether it is a conversation, an action, a persons smile, or the sound of a friend playing the piano. In everything, there the LORD is. Although this road I travel on may be stirred by the wind or hit by a hurricane I will still Praise the LORD in the storm and turn to Him for his hand to hold me. This road fills me with peace and joy. Although it sometimes makes me want to run as fast as I can, for now I am just going to walk slow.....taking in all that I can...for fear that this road will disappear and I will be left with nothing but pebbles on the ground and the memories of a beautiful trail winding through the green trees, leading to a place where only the LORD and I could go.

He is so near to me!

Life itself seems to be going pretty good lately....
The things that I was struggling with seem to have disappeared and all I am left with is this amazing feeling that I can not explain. This feeling that strength and courage are heading my way and when I am least expecting it they are going to hit me right in the face and I am going to stop and wander where it is coming from. There are a lot of challenges this semester and although I am scared I am excited at the same time because I want to conquer me fears. There are a few things that I have done already in the last three weeks that I never could have done before and even though they are small things to some people, to me they are huge and very important and a big step into the next season of my life. YAY! A new season! That is exciting for me. I feel like I have been stuck in this same circle of life for so long I need something new. New challenges to build my character. New passions to consume me. So this is me excited for the future. This is me excited that the LORD is so near!

My song!

I see you LORD when she looks at me
I see you LORD in her smile at peace
I know you're there in her arms
I know you're there keeping her from harm
You are the air she breaths
You are the song she sings
LORD come hear her now
LORD come hear her now
She needs you LORD to guide her way
She needs you LORD each and every day
She needs you LORD every step she takes
She needs you LORD every morning she wakes
Cause you are the air she breaths
You are the song she sings
LORD come hear her now
LORD come hear her now

I wrote this song but I don't know if the lyrics are good or not. Tell me what you think!

Be Happy

Okay so...Because people continue to nag at me for not blogging i firgured i would right now...because i have so much time on my hands...
My thoughts for today are no where to be found....I am in the kinda mood where I stop and sit...not really thinking about anything...I guess im just being content with where i am...for the moment anyway....that feeling will prolly change come tomorrow.... I dont have any feelings about anything today..dont have any thoughts...I just am simply being in this world where everyone else seems to be going crazy around me and I am just here...watching. Maybe I will be the crazy one tomorrow...you never know with my life...
But for now I am just going to love the LORD and be happy....

Another semester has come!

So in the words of my beloved friend, who never fails to remind me of the things I don't want to be reminded of...."Classes start tomorrow!"

It's hard to believe that my first semester of college is over and I am on to the next. I find it wonderful how even when I am not doing anything life still goes on with out me. I am excited for this semster. Excited for the challenges that I know full well I will face. I can't explain how much I am thankful for the grace of God being beside me through out this new season in my life. The season where I am all about learning and growing. I never thought change could be so amazing but from my experience in the last four months I have to say that it was and will continue to be amazing and an act of God.
I am not very excited for getting up at 7:00 a.m for two weeks but I think once I start it will be okay. I need to find ways to keep myself awake for my english Lit. class.....Don't ask why I am in that class because I dont even know. However I am excited to brush up on my writing skills. I love to write but know that I need alot of work.
Happiness consumes me at this moment and I am at peace with who I am and where I am.
Praise God from whom all blessings flow!!!